Mommy break - Nic drank from a bottle

Joseph says I am not defined by my breasts. Now does that sound funny or what. You have to take it in context though! Last night I left the house for about an hour for a much needed Mommy break. When I came home I found Joseph holding Nic with a bottle in his hand. Joseph had made sure I left a can of soy formula before I left, in case Nic got hungry. Nic nurses pretty frequently, so not surprisingly, he got hungry. Joseph gave him the bottle and he drank an ounce and a half before I came home.

And it made me sad. Somehow I like being the sole source of his food, at least until he can start eating other things in a few months. Silly! I think it has something to do with not being able to nurse Jac, and having to pump. I am not sure.

The only problem with this, is that in the middle of the night last night he threw up! A lot! Not a spit up (which he does a tiny but of several times most days) but an actual retching throw up. On the couch! Not good. Hmmm ... I am not absolutely sure it was caused by the formula - I guess we won't know until we try it again. I am just not willing to pump - I would rather just nurse him - so formula is really the only option if I take a break. I just can't bring myself to pump again after eight months of pumping for Jac.